How I Went Wolfy....

If people could choose to be a werewolf, it would be a lot easier to live with rather than being forced to become one every month....

Two years ago I was at Brenntag Great Lakes for summer camp...I did not realize that it was truly my last night being 'normal' ( I don't think anyone knows when it's their last night )... Anyways, we were young and foolish: a group of girls from my cabin were going to sneak out to the lake to meet a couple of the guys there. They had invited me along and I didn't want to be the only one not going, so I decided to follow. We hung out at the lake most of the night, however, when 3 o'clock rolled around we heard our counsel leaders making their rounds and we knew we had to bolt. We all went in different directions....but, the one I picked turned out to be wrong....

I ran for the woods... As I climbed over the debris, I heard footsteps coming in my direction....I thought it was the counsel leaders and that I was caught (I wish it was just the counsel leaders)... A wolf bounded over the fallen tree in front of me, but it was not an ordinary wolf...It was charcoal grey and stood well over 9 feet tall. However, he (I am assuming it was a he) did not immediately attack me...it was as if he had recognized me somehow, but I can assure I have never seen such a giant in my life. I stood frozen, my legs unwilling to move...I just prayed he was going to go away, but he didn't; after a matter of minutes I heard the footsteps I had prayed for early: the counsel leaders were coming in my direction [ I had hoped they would scare the wolf off, but instead he attacked ]. His ragged sharp teeth dug into my shoulder, he only bit me once and not enough to kill me. It was as if his wolf wanted me to become the monster he was...

I yelled for help and the leaders were there within minutes...The wolf was long gone...They rushed me to the ER and the doctors told me I was "fine"...*sigh* if they only knew.... two weeks later I went through Hell....I was walking home from a party when the pain started...It was unbearable: it was as though all of my nerve endings were on fire!... I simply just cannot explain to you how awful the pain was.... It doubled me over and I lay on the ground: then, my back arched into the air and I was on all fours, and it felt....normal. My senses were all heighten to maximum...I could see, hear and taste things that were miles away....The pain never really subsides while you're in wolf form, it's just kind of numbs you....After about a year you get use to the transformation....But, you just can't help but scream when it happens. That is why you need to transform somewhere where humans aren't around....Like the woods...I wonder if the Wolf that changed me knew that there were kids around the lake??

I never want anyone to experience what I have to go through every month...sometimes the pain depresses me when it gets close to the full moon, but maybe that will change.....I met a friend yesterday...She is a Ghost, named Natasia...I was just sitting on a park bench yesterday reminiscing when I saw a lady, she kind of looked out of place and no one else seemed to notice her....I think she saw me starring at her...She came and stood right in front of me (talk about rude!!!)....She started to speak, but I was already upset that she choose to stand right in front of me so I just told her to mind her own business...But, she was a cheery sort of person...and she isn't the quietest, but she is my first ghost.... I think I could use a friend in real life that understands how I feel, I get the feeling that I am going to be seeing a lot of Natasia...DON'T get me wrong I love all the people who have checked me out on here and have asked me questions and who want to be my friend...I really appreciate you guys....You are the ones that keep me from turning into a complete animal!!

Maybe this ghost friend will be a good thing....Hmmm....I'll keep you guys posted.