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| Me, Mom and Will |
Ahhh...The good old days...This is a picture my family, or my 'Pack" as I call them, nowadays... It was taken when I was six years old and Will was eight years old... Dad had been gone for a year, but that is okay: Mom had enough love for me and my brother. However, when Will ran away two years ago, Mom was depressed for a while. I think it just came as a shock to her because all of a sudden he left...without a warning...I remember the day he left....
I woke up to the smell of hot coco and donuts....Which meant that something was wrong, Mama never made hot coco and donuts unless something bad happened (like when Will killed my dog on accident...Mama made ALOT of hot coco).
I went downstairs and asked my mom what was wrong and she said "Will left."...At first I was like, 'um...okay it's Saturday, he probably was at hockey practice', But when it became late in the afternoon I finally understood what mama meant...I wept that whole night and kept asking Mama why he left and what I did wrong...She said it wasn't my fault and that Will was just too much like our dad. [ Trust me, that didn't make me feel better at all ]....
**Now I worry all the time that I am like my father....But, how would I even know if I am or not because I was too little to remember him & everything mom says about him is bad....And Will isn't here to tell me anything....So once again I am alone....**
I haven't seen my brother since the night before he left....We were playing "Call of Duty" together and eating pizza (just another typical weekend)....But, before I went to bed he hugged me and told me that he loved me and for me to never forget that; which was rare because my brother normally wasn't the emotional type...
The next day I wake up and he is gone....Since then, my mom and I haven't been the same...I think she is worried that i will leave her too....Which someday I will when I am like twenty or so years old, but for now I think I am okay where I am at.....
I have asked her if I could look for Will, but every time I bring up his name she says 'no' and that's that......Someday I hope to find him; maybe with a family and kids living in a nice house, with a dog and working a good job.....I miss and love my brother so much!!! (if by some irony he comes across this blog, I just need him to now I think about him all the time)....Maybe Natasia could help me find him...I mean she does have that whole "ghost" connection thing working for her....I will ask her next time I see her....She likes talking a lot anyways.... :)
William "Will" Dean McCalister....I love and miss you bro....Love your baby sis, Eve.
I have been a werewolf for two years and there are still some things that I am still unsure about...Maybe some of you can help....
For example, I shower constantly because I think I smell like a wolf all the time!!! (Maybe Natasia can answer that question....Wait...Can Ghosts even smell?)....Anyways.... Ever since Taylor Lautner decided to take his shirt off in a movie and make it famous I have wondered if I really do have a wolfy type scent, like 'wet dog'?
If I were to meet a vampire is he or she supposedly my "enemy"?...I don't know I don't walk around the street looking for someone who is sucking on some one's neck....*Tap vamp on shoulder*...Me: "Excuse me ma'am...I have a question... I am a new werewolf and I was wondering if we are enemies...Do you know?"...Vamp Chick *Wipes blood off mouth with back of hand and lets her victim fall to the ground*: "To tell you the truth I don't really know; I normally don't encounter many Torca Alta (werewolves). But, hey if you find out will you let me know....that way I know whether to kill you next time I see you or not?"....Me: "Yeah. Sure. No problem. How do I contact you?"....Vamp: "Give me your hand. *writes down cell number* Now if you don't mind I need to get back to my dinner."...Me: "Sure, just make sure you brush your teeth: they are stained with blood."....Vamp: "Thanks". NOOO!! Monsters don't just roam the street showing off how different we are.
While we are on the topics of vampires....If I am around them do I become "immortal" or am I immortal anyways?....Or will I age?....I could really use some insight on this....
I know that Silver doesn't kill me....So what can??? { I would prefer to stay away from those objects }.......
**IF ANYONE CAN ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS I WOULD REALLY APPRECIATE IT!! Or if you have any that you wonder about yourself I would love to hear them...Maybe I haven't even considered them before... Thanks ;D
If people could choose to be a werewolf, it would be a lot easier to live with rather than being forced to become one every month....
Two years ago I was at Brenntag Great Lakes for summer camp...I did not realize that it was truly my last night being 'normal' ( I don't think anyone knows when it's their last night )... Anyways, we were young and foolish: a group of girls from my cabin were going to sneak out to the lake to meet a couple of the guys there. They had invited me along and I didn't want to be the only one not going, so I decided to follow. We hung out at the lake most of the night, however, when 3 o'clock rolled around we heard our counsel leaders making their rounds and we knew we had to bolt. We all went in different directions....but, the one I picked turned out to be wrong....
I ran for the woods... As I climbed over the debris, I heard footsteps coming in my direction....I thought it was the counsel leaders and that I was caught (I wish it was just the counsel leaders)... A wolf bounded over the fallen tree in front of me, but it was not an ordinary wolf...It was charcoal grey and stood well over 9 feet tall. However, he (I am assuming it was a he) did not immediately attack me...it was as if he had recognized me somehow, but I can assure I have never seen such a giant in my life. I stood frozen, my legs unwilling to move...I just prayed he was going to go away, but he didn't; after a matter of minutes I heard the footsteps I had prayed for early: the counsel leaders were coming in my direction [ I had hoped they would scare the wolf off, but instead he attacked ]. His ragged sharp teeth dug into my shoulder, he only bit me once and not enough to kill me. It was as if his wolf wanted me to become the monster he was...
I yelled for help and the leaders were there within minutes...The wolf was long gone...They rushed me to the ER and the doctors told me I was "fine"...*sigh* if they only knew.... two weeks later I went through Hell....I was walking home from a party when the pain started...It was unbearable: it was as though all of my nerve endings were on fire!... I simply just cannot explain to you how awful the pain was.... It doubled me over and I lay on the ground: then, my back arched into the air and I was on all fours, and it felt....normal. My senses were all heighten to maximum...I could see, hear and taste things that were miles away....The pain never really subsides while you're in wolf form, it's just kind of numbs you....After about a year you get use to the transformation....But, you just can't help but scream when it happens. That is why you need to transform somewhere where humans aren't around....Like the woods...I wonder if the Wolf that changed me knew that there were kids around the lake??
I never want anyone to experience what I have to go through every month...sometimes the pain depresses me when it gets close to the full moon, but maybe that will change.....I met a friend yesterday...She is a Ghost, named Natasia...I was just sitting on a park bench yesterday reminiscing when I saw a lady, she kind of looked out of place and no one else seemed to notice her....I think she saw me starring at her...She came and stood right in front of me (talk about rude!!!)....She started to speak, but I was already upset that she choose to stand right in front of me so I just told her to mind her own business...But, she was a cheery sort of person...and she isn't the quietest, but she is my first ghost.... I think I could use a friend in real life that understands how I feel, I get the feeling that I am going to be seeing a lot of Natasia...DON'T get me wrong I love all the people who have checked me out on here and have asked me questions and who want to be my friend...I really appreciate you guys....You are the ones that keep me from turning into a complete animal!!
Maybe this ghost friend will be a good thing....Hmmm....I'll keep you guys posted.
For 29 days out of a 30 day month I am normal: Atleast, as normal as a werewolf can be...
Hey, the name I was born with was 'Evangeline McCalister', but NO ONE calls me that, they just call me Eve. I like Eve; it's a simple name and I need simple in my life. I am a 17 year old teen/werewolf....Simple is what I strive for, but never seem to reach. Being a werewolf has put a lot of tension on my family...well my mom atleast: my dad bolted on us 12 years ago and I haven't seen my older brother, Will, since he ran away 2 years ago. So, it's just been my mom and I....But, she thinks I am acting up {you know doing drugs or whatever}, she doesn't realize I sneak out of the house every month to protect her, not to 'hook up' and 'get wasted'. Last week she actually asked me if I needed counseling! I can see it now.... Psychologist: "And how do you feel about that?"....Me: "I am a freaking werewolf! How do you think I feel?"...Psychologist: *Calming tone* "Eve, please use your inside voice."...haha no thanks mom I am okay without the Psychologist. It seems like I have had to hurt my mom by keeping secrets from her, to protect her, but if I told her the truth she would freak out. I have been a werewolf for two years and I still don't believe it sometimes.
'Werewolfism' seems to get easier with time; or that's what I thought til 11 days ago. March 8th, there was a full moon, but most of the world doesn't notice, however, I am FORCED to notice...
Turning into a werewolf is not as easy as Taylor Lautner makes it seem (That boy is pretty gorgeous though)...I can't just rip off my clothes whenever I want, do a little jump and *BAM* I am a werewolf...No it takes time and is more painful than many people realize. Silver does not effect me: if fact I am wearing a silver cross necklace right now. Also, contrary to popular belief, Thanks to "Twilight", our emotions don't make us change into a werewolf either, only the Full Moon can make us turn: and we have no choice...This 'condition' is with me for the rest of my life: I just need to make sure I don't bring this curse onto anyone else (by biting or scratching them). I don't want anyone to feel as out of place as me...
That is why I wanted to start this blog...I wanted to create a space where I can truly be me...and to let people hear my story... Please feel free to ask me anything!!! I will reply :D ...I am an open person; well, atleast on here I am...Also, if there are any other 'Abnormal' people out there hit me up...we might have a lot in common.... :D
Wolf*Girl
>>>>>Stay tuned for: *How I went Wolfy...*
